“When Creativity Feels Like Chaos”

📸: Niko Lucian

Dear Reader,

I know it’s been a while since I last posted. After releasing my album, I felt completely burnt out. I was so focused on finishing and putting it out into the world that I forgot to take care of myself. On top of that, I was overwhelmed with college exams.

For almost two months after the release, I barely wrote anything. That silence reminded me of a song I wrote a year ago but never had the chance to record. I’d like to share a few lines from it:

“It feels like a prison
A prison you put me in
It feels like a prison to me
It feels like a prison
A prison of crazy guilt
But some other day I’m free”

Reading those lyrics again, I realised I’d been building my own sort of “prison” — where I could barely move, barely create. My mood was low, and days blurred into each other. Deep down, I knew something wasn’t right.

But here’s what I’ve learned: it’s okay to take a break after pouring your whole self into something — even if it’s the thing you love. Especially if you’re juggling it with things you don’t love. Sometimes you just need time to detox, to feel nothing, to rest without guilt.

Now, I finally feel ready to return to life. To get involved again. To create again.

If this feels like you right now, please know: you’re not alone. Let yourself rest. Reboot. You are loved. You are heard. You are seen.

Sincere,

Yours Viktoriia ❤